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Domestic Terrorist
03:20
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I’m that domestic terrorist, bitch
Jacking nuclear family shit
White middle class suburbia better watch out
Coz I’m cutting all their throats out
Ima step in the bedroom and start sniffing for blood
Trap hole under the floor that’s covered with a dirty rug
Jesus loves me written on my coffee mug
One wrong move today and I will pull the fucking plug
On my sanity, slip into the abyss
Nothing will matter coz none of this shit
Means anything to me or fucking anyone around me
In this sick twisted world that’s always tryna drown me
I will get revenge on the white picket fence
I’m that domestic terrorist, bitch
Jacking nuclear family shit
White middle class suburbia better watch out
Coz I’m cutting all their throats out
You’ll catch me frothing at the mouth
Outside your window
Tonight a wife will wake up
To be a widow
Hard liquor on my breath
I stench up all your hallways
I’m creeping round your house at night
Come out and play
Hiding inside of your home
Jacking off to all of your porn
Next time you touch yourself
You’ll know you’re not alone
I’ll come jizzing out the closet
With your toothbrush in my asshole
(Hey, that’s a little fucked up though)
I’ve been trying to figure out how your toaster works
So I can turn your hot bath into some fireworks
I set you alight
I’m out of sight
Losing my mind
Yo, I just might
Take all your lives
Sounds like an ideal Friday night
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2. |
Running in Circles
03:21
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I’m in need of some sleep
I’m losing my mind
It feels like only yesterday
That I thought was doing just fine
Gonna wake up to the same shit
Stuck on repeat again
Day in, day out,
I’ve been cycling round
Running in circles my whole life
I’ve been walking in the dark
Stumbling over the shit I forgot on the floor
About a few years ago
Back when I was a kid with some hope and a dream
A dream of a wonderful place
Nothing could phase me nothing could erase all the love
I felt in my vision so pure
Wholesome an innocence that could possibly cure
All of the dark in this world
All of the hate and the pain that I feel throughout all my days
Damn, shit really changed
Goodbye to youth, hello to the twelve gauge
Let it go, its only natural
Pessimism replaces our blood and it’s all we know
No one’s got your back like
No one’s got your back like
No one’s got your back til the end of it all like you do
I’m in need of some sleep
I’m losing my mind
It feels like only yesterday
That I thought was doing just fine
Gonna wake up to the same shit
Stuck on repeat again
Day in, day out,
I’ve been cycling round
Running in circles my whole life
Time to get serious but
I don’t know how to break up with the mask on my face,
Suffocating my thoughts and happiness
I could feel all of my light was erased
And it’s too late to think about time lost
Wasting moments with thoughts of my death
Now I wanna be here until my last breath
Keep making music until my life end and I'm gone
Just wanna leave behind songs
Rhythm and melody’s where I belong
A graveyard full of these harmonies
Where the tombstones are covered in lyrics
So long
See you on the other side of it all
I’ll be waiting watching everything crash and fall
When I see you again I’ll be different
It’ll all be different after all
Let it go, its only natural
Pessimism replaces our blood and it’s all we know
No one’s got your back like
No one’s got your back like
No one’s got your back til the end of it all like you do
I’m in need of some sleep
I’m losing my mind
It feels like only yesterday
That I thought was doing just fine
Gonna wake up to the same shit
Stuck on repeat again
Day in, day out,
I’ve been cycling round
Running in circles my whole life
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3. |
Young, Dumb, Damaged
02:47
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Enslaved and caged, I’m enraged,
Slowly slipping towards my fate,
Insane in a sick game,
I don’t want fame, no,
I just wanna be heard
But creative blocks in my way
Are causing me to murder any part of me
That stands in my own way,
I reminisce back towards better
When things were simple, we were kids,
We had nothing to lose
We had the whole world to gain
And we had something to prove
But life goes on and it slips through your fingertips
So now every second counts, every syllable from my lips
Humility and gratitude, they were just words to me
But now they form foundations of who I want to be.
Because I’m lost and spiralling down,
My brothers won’t lay me to rest
I’m gonna turn this shit around
And settle for nothing but the best
I’ll bring the pain coz I’m young, dumb, and damaged
I’ma bring that pain coz I’m young, dumb, and damaged
Pure love, peace, joy, happiness, and freedom
What do these words mean and do I even feel them?
Are they just some slogans or some bumper sticker shit
Conveniently utilized whenever we see fit?
I want the real thing, I wanna talk to God
But I can’t help realizing that something feels odd
When you’re talking to something
You know probably don’t exist
Stuck somewhere between agnostic and atheist,
I know the devil’s real, I have seen him myself
He was in the mirror when I opened up the medicine shelf,
Overdosed and saw him again at the tunnel end gates
They pumped my stomach and then he was in the nurse’s face
All I wanted was to die, don’t resuscitate, bitch
Now there’s pain on the faces of the ones I’m in the room with
Brought back into a fucking rotting world of shit,
Surrounded by greed and hate that I must now live with.
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4. |
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I can’t relate anymore
To anyone that used to know me before
Everything had dissipated and I fell apart
So I could reset my life and restart
Now those days are over
I replay them in my head
Coz when I’m sober
I still think of you til I see red
So I drink my medicine
And it goes straight to my head
I’m in love with danger again
I’m so fucking tired
But I’m feeling alright
I had a good night
The demons in my head
tucked me in tight
I’m ready to face the next day
I refuse to get in my own way
I may just stumble
I may just fall and lose it all
But best believe I’m off my knees
And if they’re broken I will crawl my way
Into the next chapter
I bring the motherfucking rapture,
Crucify my inner demons,
Fluid conditional adapter
Not a wordsmith but I’m trying
My vocabulary’s high in
Words that don’t make sense or fit together
Just like my thoughts
When I try to put them down on pen and paper
It’s all blurry like my weekend
Where I fell into the deep end
And I drowned but woke up
Only drenched in sweat and regret
But relieved to realize that I’m nowhere near the end
Of my time here on this earth
Here’s to family and friends
I can’t relate anymore
To anyone that used to know me before
Everything had dissipated and I fell apart
So I could reset my life and restart
Now those days are over
I replay them in my head
Coz when I’m sober
I still think of you til I see red
So I drink my medicine
And it goes straight to my head
I’m in love with danger again
Get out my way
I’m stuck in the fast lane
In a life of perpetual madness,
Insane like a
Hungry street dog
With rabies and mange
Just tearing through garbage
to get through the day
and it’s lonely
I wish you would phone me
Tell me I’m your only
That's wishful thinking
I can’t relate anymore
To anyone that used to know me before
Everything had dissipated and I fell apart
So I could reset my life and restart
Now those days are over
I replay them in my head
Coz when I’m sober
I still think of you til I see red
So I drink my medicine
And it goes straight to my head
I’m in love with danger again
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5. |
Happy Death Day
03:45
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Looking back I realize you were my best friend
Couldn’t wait for school hours to end
Everyday we would meet up in the neighborhood
Play with Yugioh cards, PlayStation 2, you know what’s good
Time passed by, we grew older and apart
But your brotherhood remained close to my heart
We gravitated back together again in a bar
Then one night you played the fool drunk driving your car
I heard you’re out cold, chilling in the hospital
Next thing I hear you’re talking to your mom while you fall
Asleep on your soon to be death bed
Fractured skull, tired soul, hole in your head
Eventually you passed on, they pulled the plug
We realize that you would never wake up to us
A never ending coma, no hope
We had to let you go we fired guns at your funeral
So I hope you’re now resting in peace
I won’t forget you, don’t forget me.
And I know I’m one of many when I say
Once death impacts life we’re never the same
Now you’re spending time with one or two other friends
that I lost along the way, a young girl shot in the back in the head
and two brothers that swung by a noose on a cold dark day
I stutter with a frog in my throat but still say
I miss that feeling
Of being young
Only toy guns
And there’s no justice
When you grow up
It’s fight or run
Float to the sun
Then melt away
Evaporate
Happy death day
I remember that hangover beach day
On repeat listening to Bodyjar, it’s not the same
You helped me out in the darkest of times
Through betrayal and my hardship you stuck by my side
You had a death pact, and I was warned
That you will take your life soon, nothing could sway you
You made your mind up long before you took any action
You dropped me a text when I was at the airport relaxing
I told you I would be back pretty soon,
Left you with the digits of our entire crew
Little did I know that’s the last I would hear from you
I was thousands of miles away when I received the news
Your sister told me that you’re gone
I was invited to a celebration that I was too far from
They would celebrate your life
I would go out and make the most of my night
And now you live on with many others in my thoughts,
In my songs, in my memories whatever I can hold on to
I hope you never forget me coz I will never forget you
I miss that feeling
Of being young
Only toy guns
And there’s no justice
When you grow up
It’s fight or run
Float to the sun
Then melt away
Evaporate
Happy death day
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6. |
Black Sheep
04:08
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I’m floating like a feather in the wind
Just tryna catch moments and the state of mind I'm in at the time
Try to forget rewinding counting back to the day of beginning again
It’s like the cycle never ends when I’m loopy
Might travel back in time just to go and shoot me
Make sure I never make a single song
Or try to write some rhymes well picking a guitar, I was wrong
But still the melodies keep me going strong
I figured out just what is I want in this life, I want answers
So I’ll stick around and I’ll keep taking all my chances
Pushing buttons in the universe just to see what they do
Rewiring my brain to see if I break through to the other side
Wonder what I’ll find back there, I’m a little scared,
But oh well here I go
Hello? Is anybody out there?
Come on, take a ride with me through my consciousness
I got questions, can you try to answer this
I wanna know if the soul exists
And if God is really real can he make my mom rich (I wish)
Provide me with some peace of mind inside
It’s just chaos well I try to run and hide from my thoughts
I’m on fire and no self love extinguishes the flame
So I’ll just smoke out my enemies and play the wicked game
Gravity is the law but I never liked the rules
So I’ll be floating in the clouds
High above the buildings where they manufacture you
I’m the black sheep in the crowd
I’ve been told I’m a misfit outcast
And I speak a little too loud
But you’ll all remember my name
From the love I leave behind and my sounds
I took another trip down my memory lane
Just to see how bar back I can remember everything
But my life’s been feeling like a blur and I’m rushed
Time keeps speeding up, leaving me behind in the dust
I’m turning 25 this year and that’s crazy
What the hell happened to my life and time I was a baby
Not too long ago in the crib when my mamma would tuck me in
She would start to sing but little did she know
the melodies would stick in my head
And I’d go on to make music my best friend
It’s always been there throughout my whole life
Something I’ve counted on when I’m not doing alright
I’ve thought of suicide and almost succeeded twice
But I never wanna think of that again
I’ve got too much love inside of me to let this life end
So I’m keeping on until I make this life golden
Gravity is the law but I never liked the rules
So I’ll be floating in the clouds
High above the buildings where they manufacture you
I’m the black sheep in the crowd
I’ve been told I’m a misfit outcast
And I speak a little too loud
But you’ll all remember my name
From the love I leave behind and my sounds
I’m struggling to make sense of anything around me
I dissociate and my thoughts blind me
They get a little too loud sometimes
I got to pop in and whisper “Shh, keep it down”
It gets a little bit noisy up in here
Especially this time of year
When I’m drinking, thinking
Feel like I’m sinking
Down the drain and here I go again
Slipping and sliding through the mainframe of my brain
Kinda colliding with my homies in the day to day
We got a few things in common,
Like the things that never go away
Coz that’s life and the way it always has been for us
I hoop you vibe in the hook and the chorus
Coz here it comes again one last time
Take a hit, lay back, close your eyes, open your mind
And let the soul food feed you
I hope these words meant something to you
So until we meet again on the B Side
Promise me you’ll live your best life
We’re gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Gravity is the law but I never liked the rules
So I’ll be floating in the clouds
High above the buildings where they manufacture you
I’m the black sheep in the crowd
I’ve been told I’m a misfit outcast
And I speak a little too loud
But you’ll all remember my name
From the love I leave behind and my sounds
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I remember my first cigarette
I was about 12 and I thought I was the shit
Lit it up and took a little hit
Even if I tried now I couldn’t quit
I remember my first time having sex
I was about 13 I couldn’t believe it
Just a minute into it I was dead
Used no condom, got the pill for my girlfriend
I remember my first time seeing meth
I was about 14 in an apartment
They were showing off guns in the basement
I preferred liquor coz at least I could taste it
I remember my first taste of death
Fighting 3 on one like a fucking idiot
I bled out on a cold pavement
I saw a light and reality was distant
I remember my first suicide attempt
Rushed to a hospital hoping it’s my deathbed
They got the poison all out in the end
I wish I could say that I learnt a lesson
I remember losing control again
My seizures got worse and they didn’t end
Despite taking Epilem
It took a few years for the nightmares to end
I remember my first rehabilitation
Treatment center after ultimatum
Subject of an intervention
My behavior was in question
I remember my first arrest
Flat back in the cell, eyes on the ceiling
They brought breakfast in the morning
All I tasted was pain and regret
I remember my first betrayal
Now I’ll cut you off like a train derailed
I remember my first heartbreak
Now I’ve learnt everything in life just is that way
Now I move forward,
Looking back
And not forgetting a thing
And I’ll move on,
I’m still intact
Ready for anything
Now I move forward,
Looking back
And not forgetting a thing
And I’ll move on,
I’m still intact
Ready for anything
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You’ll wrap yourself in a blanket of regret
I’ll wrap myself in sandpaper secrets
Cut into me, and like the ashes I reap
Alcohol, poison, internally bleed
Bleed onto me, you taste so sweet
Kiss me, gay boy
Give me what I need
Phallic fixation, drunken frustration
Cure my disease with the blood that you bleed
Bleed into me, saliva so sweet
Kiss me, gay boy, kiss me then leave
Because we’re all just toys
Get drunk, kiss boys
Feedback and noise
Get drunk, kiss boys
I know all the tricks of the trade
To get into the linings of bruised hearts
And now I’m alone in my home
With my thoughts picking stupid songs on guitar
There’s gotta be more to existing
Than breathing and emotional roller-coaster rides
Something more challenging than self-medicating
Something much bigger than I
Now I’m wasting half my life
Searching for meaning (futile)
I’m laid flat on the floor
My eyes glues to the ceiling (cold tiles)
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9. |
Problem After All
03:34
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I’m tryna make the most of my time here
All I wanna do is disappear
Irritable, what is the cause
Maybe I'm the problem after all
Tasting both sides of the track is a blast
Growing in poverty but tryna make good times last
I’m here to leave a mark on this world
And you’ll Remember my name or you’ll remember my death toll
I grew up on a fluctuation,
little to no one relates to my situation
white boy grow up surrounded by colour
Infatuated but never felt love (ah)
Raised on violence and hatred
Passed down from generation to degeneration
And I’m a byproduct, a defective from the stock
I cant tell you what gushed from my dads cock
Born and bred surrounded
By racist hate and supremacy abundant
Bikers Afrikaner bloed, I’m a soutie
No idea what the fuck I’m supposed to be
I got a clear idea of what I'm not
Connect the blood stains and you connect the dots
I talk to dead friends in my dreams
Your thriller movies are my reality
I’m tryna make the most of my time here
All I wanna do is disappear
Irritable, what is the cause
Maybe I'm the problem after all
Suicide is something too familiar
2 attempts serious 2 were vinegar
On my wounds screaming "bruh, get some help"
Its in your genetics it’s swimming in your blood cells
Rehab, jail, man what does it fuckin take
Just to put you on a path away from savagery ways
You follow in the footsteps of what you know
Broken, twisted, this is your home
Turn it all around another year goes by
Another held back tear from your eyes
Bottle it up and drink all that shit down
I’m a fucking joke, I’m the motherfucking clown
What is my destiny?
Pure perpetual pain and no rest for me
I’m on a constant emotional roller-coaster
I climb in my bathtub and drop the toaster
Ahaha, suicide is funny
If you're desensitized to the act and you're running
I guess some of us find some relief
In the fact that no one gives a fuck if we leave
I’m tryna make the most of my time here
All I wanna do is disappear
Irritable, what is the cause
Maybe I'm the problem after all
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10. |
So Disposable
03:19
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How long were you on your way out for
I just wanna know if I meant anything to you before
I never knew that I was so disposable
Threw me away like I meant nothing to you at all
Don’t tell me I didn’t try only my best
Just to keep you close to my heart under my chest
And I know that I'm troubled, I know I can be
Just A little bit difficult but you will see
If you gimme a chance I will prove it to you
But you won’t so there's nothing at all I can do
But I’m honest I promise I did all I could
But I guess that wasn’t enough for you
So long
Well I guess this is goodbye
It’s been real
I’ll Cross my heart and hope you die
I know
That if you lose me
You lose a good thing
How long were you on your way out for
I just wanna know if I meant anything to you before
I never knew that I was so disposable
Threw me away like I meant nothing to you at all
How long were you on your way out for
I just wanna know if I meant anything to you before
I never knew that I was so disposable
Threw me away like I meant nothing to you at all
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11. |
Give Me Death
03:29
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It was when she whispered hurt me
That I lost my self control
I tore myself up from inside her
Just to soak into her soul
And from every sweat drenched moan
To every breathless sigh,
I was complacent; nihilistic,
I was ready to die.
Arch in your back
You show me your whip,
A kiss for a smack,
Don’t gimme me no lip,
Something’s wrong,
Just gimme some head,
Pull yourself together,
Now give me some death,
Now give me death.
Can't say I didn't miss this
God knows I’ve missed your flesh
And I know that you know
I'm the one that knows you best
So when you find yourself beside me
In my bed, I'm in your head,
I'm swallowing you whole
To fill a hole inside my chest.
Arch in your back
You show me your whip,
A kiss for a smack,
Don’t gimme me no lip,
Something’s wrong,
Just gimme some head,
Pull yourself together,
Now give me some death,
Now give me death.
Don't toy with me.
I'm just a boy, you see.
Damaged insecurity,
I break easily.
Arch in your back
You show me your whip,
A kiss for a smack,
Don’t gimme me no lip,
Something’s wrong,
Just gimme some head,
Pull yourself together,
Now give me some death,
Now give me death.
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12. |
We Got Shit To Do
02:20
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Tears in my mother’s eyes
Prevent my thoughts of suicide
But demons in my head are talking
They’re plotting my homicide
Something that still haunts my every sleepless night
I try to internalize it
And put up my best fight
But it still creeps up on me when I’m alone,
I’m frantic and lonely,
Scrolling through the contacts on my cellphone
I think that writing might help
I feel a little more like myself
But once I put that shit on paper
Then I put it back into my shelf
Perhaps it’s time to be a little more honest
I may need some help
Now no liquor, no blowjob, no meds
Can ease this pain,
No smoke, no money
And fuck cocaine
I’ve been on a mission for a while now to find myself,
I never stopped to consider my own mental health
No holiday trip out to America
No laid back puffing on the indica
No cold beers on the couch
Chilling with the crew
Because your happiness and strength
Needs to come from within you
It’s hard to find that strength
When my vision is so hazy
I try to think forward
To how better my days can be
And once I take a few steps back
And I get into the rhythm
I stop talking for a second
And I just listen to myself
Dude, you’re sounding like you’re crazy
Don’t think of taking your life
You’ll tear apart your family and your friends
Who’s gonna be there to listen to their shit
You’re the glue that keeps them all together
And you know it
Now stop thinking like that
And get your shit together
It’s no use dwelling in the miserable weather
So pick yourself up
And be the best version of you
And remember we got shit to do
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FiveSidedDice Port Elizabeth, South Africa
FiveSidedDice is a multi-genre music project from the coast of South Africa which was started in 2008. After attaining an inclusive degree in music having done a year of a general diploma in music at Nelson Mandela University, the journey of FiveSidedDice remains ongoing, and the sound ever-changing and evolving. The music of FiveSidedDice and affiliated projects is available across all platforms. ... more
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